This is my beginning
For I’ve chosen the end.
No longer trailing along,
Lost in a desire that weakens my soul,
I now walk barefoot.
I confidently sat on a pedestal
Almost engraved with my name,
But as quickly as I was elevated
Tumbling down I came –
I was now on the backburner.
See last night I prayed.
Leaving behind what once held me high,
Shedding the layers that eventually
Dragged me down,
I just prayed.
My plea was answered before I even began.
Yet there I prayed – seeking reassurance.
Going back in time,
I realized I was driving past exit signs
Time after time, disguised in numbers –
Each representing the many occasions
I wished to retract on my journey
And many of my regretted actions.
But God spoke to me,
Forgave me for the guilt I carried in the backseat,
Buried with accessories necessary for one’s travels.
This expedition had an expiration date
From the moment I agreed to ride.
But this is my beginning.
And I smile because now I just drive –
Drive on a freeway at a comfortable speed
Hair blowing in the wind,
Sun kissing my skin…