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"Who could be so lucky? Who comes to a lake for water and sees the reflection of the moon." Rumi


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A New Season

Tis such a busy season. I’m taking some time off  between work to write because I have many thoughts in my head and wish to share with you. I’ve been learning some new lessons; well, still in the process, but I’ve become aware of some weaknesses that have been put to the test lately.

“Patience does not mean to passively endure. It means to be farsighted enough to trust the end result of a process.” -Rumi

  1. Patience: I am currently working on becoming creative in the ways I will make money. My job is not my career, much less my passion. Accounting, it’s good to know, but it isn’t something I actually enjoy doing. I’m glad I have this knowledge though because it will benefit me for my future plans. I truly want to become more flexible with my time; I want to become more available to do the things I enjoy doing, and do so while increasing cash flow. I have a plan and it’s somewhat in the works. But it’s taking longer than expected and a bit more complicated than I originally thought. However, it’s teaching me patience. It’s teaching me that anything worth doing takes time in the making. Vegetable blossoms don’t grow overnight. So I realize this gives me time to organize my thoughts and even write an outline of my plans. (I’m not very disciplined but am learning how to be).

“This discipline and rough treatment are a furnace to extract the silver from the dross. This testing purifies the gold by boiling the scum away.” – Rumi

  1. Discipline: I’m realizing that especially in a fast-paced society, discipline and structure are actually very necessary. Many people repel those words because they automatically associate them with restrictions, like I once did until now. Does a tree not have structure in its growth and sustainability? Is there no structure in pollination? Is there no structure with our internal organs? Is discipline not a way of organizing oneself to simply follow through with goals or even chores? Well, I tend to have many unfinished goals and my chores pile up ever so often. I’m also realizing that having a full-time job and being an artist is quite a lot to juggle. There are many activities that I feel are necessary for my growth, and juggling work and late night events takes a toll on me. For example, how do I fit in my reading, poem memorization,  meditation, exercise and food-planning with work and performances? I feel pressured to maintain and increase my efficacy at work whilst maintaining and increasing my artistic presence in the local scene as well. I’m working on finding a balance between all things, and it just might mean sacrifice.

“O, happy the soul that saw its own faults.” – Rumi

  1. Ego: Man, I never thought any situation would ever affect me in a way that would ‘hurt’ my ego. And well, I have a confession: I actually feel a bit threatened by someone who was brought into work over the weekend. As most of you all know, I am the only employee among three CPA partners, e.g. my bosses. A young lady was brought in to help me out through this busy season, but I felt offended and a bit threatened. I forgot what it’s like to have co-workers and have not dealt with the competition that goes on in the workplace and have not been in a ‘survival of the fittest’ mode in a long time. Now, don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I’m not accepting of her, but now she presents another option for my bosses should her work efficiency surpass mine, and being that she’s studying accounting, she may just have more oomph in the way she works because it’s something I assume she feels passionate about. I was finding every reason to point out how illogical her ‘temporary’ contract would be. I was disappointed and stressed. Then I realized my ego is really taking a hit. Why would I be against someone else’s progress? She needs the experience and possibly the job as well. I confided in two people whom their opinions I value. And then I saw this situation through different lens and decided that now, more than ever, I have to focus on those plans I spoke of earlier. Perhaps it is my time to finally move on and allow someone else to grow but not without a strategic plan that will allow me to ascend however this situation may play out.

 

I’m feeling way better than I was this and last week. I’m feeling optimistic this morning, looking forward to my new chapter. A plethora of developmental changes awaits me yet again!

Ah, self-growth, a never-ending journey.

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Hey, Robot… feel THIS!

A few days ago, two friends and I met a man, whom we’ll call VF for Victor Frankenstein, who seems to have become obsessed with the idea of robots becoming more and more like humans. He showed us of the newest robot invention, in which he has invested, and praised it for its ability to evoke ‘emotion’. The robot is programmed to think like a human. VF was pushing his claim about the humanistic technology by stating that one day it will be taking care of our parents when they reach old age since, according to him, we humans don’t care enough about each other to do it. And that’s the reason he invested in this ‘human’ of the future. He has little faith in humanity and would rather deposit it, along with his money (or credit/loan), in something that ultimately is made by man. Ironic.

My friends and I had a different take on the subject. To what seemed to him as a negative outlook on technology, he went on a tangent about the need to see it as something positive and begins to number the very few advantages of embracing it. Now, to be clear, my outlook on technology is by no means a negative one, rather a more consciously critical perspective whilst acknowledging those very few qualities.

And as VF so fervidly tries to convince us that robots are the future of humanity and how we should eagerly embrace it, he fails to accept the fact that if he took that same passion and applied it to his views about humankind, he’d then realize that this initial obsession over technology is one of the main factors why society has become so desensitized. He said these robots would one day learn to love, perhaps even better than we ever could. Ha! We actually found this amusing.

My friends, let’s not forget that even though our fleshly bodies will eventually decay, our spirit bodies live on for an eternity. Our souls will wonder in galactic bliss time after time. Love can NEVER be replaced. Never. Our hearts are made of energy, our nervous system and hormones work magically together to provide the serotonin and endorphin, for example, that only human touch and other humanly functions can offer, and most importantly, our souls that reside in our physical know and feel the connection between all that is encompassed through The Divine.

Sure there are a plethora of things wrong in the world, but they won’t fix with attacks and negative energy. Ego destroys, compassion builds, and love will always remain. Let’s stay in love with one another despite turmoil.

Nina Simone addresses the audience so cleverly. But as the robots that people have become, they remained clueless as to the meaning and feelings that Nina was indirectly expressing. Please enjoy this fascinating and passionate performance.