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"Who could be so lucky? Who comes to a lake for water and sees the reflection of the moon." Rumi


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My Nature

Reflecting in the nude with all inhibitions down and my aura fixed in transparency,

I come to terms with a being I just recently began seeking, though I’ve known for a lifetime.

I sit back and analyze every vibration that flows through my veins, from one extreme to the next.

Conscious of my inadequacies, I study my behavior like a baby learning he’s attached to his limbs.

My heart is open, my mind is free, and my soul is at peace.

I rest assuredly knowing that I am one with nature, a connection that can never be torn.

The oxygen I breathe is shared with the animals that roam the land,

The sun that feeds life into flowers and trees energizes my being,

The water that cleanses the stains of this earth consumes my body whole.

The skies promise the splendor of a day,

And with every passing cloud, there’s a resemblance of the changes I face,

Envisioning a truth different from the rest.

I know not yet where I’m going,

But I am positive that I head toward the right direction.


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Let’s Be Fit (Pt.1)

This is the first half of one of my signature spoken word pieces.
I will post a video of me performing this in Jamaica when I finally access it.
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Diluting the way we live life,
Technology over powers our substantial beliefs:
Social feeds have transformed our egos;
Social needs are being ignored;
Self-absorbed; we care only for our selves.
Are we not our brother’s keeper?
Information flows through the internet
As situations take place,
And as we enter it, we watch in amazement.
And with a click of a button we go back to our lives,
Oblivious of what we witness,
Ignorant of why we should care,
With the audacity to say, “f*ck my life”,
We watch others in despair.
The East is raging in war.
The West is overflowing.
Our countries are slowly dying
While our leaders are ever growing.
And its mind blowing
How we live in these bubbles,
Pretending to know what we don’t-
To care for what we could care less for.
This ain’t no utopian world.
There’s no perfection in our social-political system.
NEWSFLASH:
There is no world peace.
We don’t live in “ideal socialism”.
There’s no such thing as inter-religious relationships.
Death and suffering is part of our existence.
 
But even though this is true,
Still I ask…
Why must we look the other way?
Why must we disregard the pain of others,
The struggle of many,
And the attempt at survival for some?
Let’s not get reeled into selfishness.
Bring back that substance that once existed in our hearts –
That truth we longed for.
Let our prayers be not of our wants and needs
But for our neighbors.
Let’s pray for that world peace.
We need to open our eyes,
Engage in society,
Protect our environment,
Live with integrity.
Physically, mentally, spiritually
Let’s Be Fit


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So It Was

A couple calendars have passed, 

And I ask all that IS 

If more seasons will evolve before 

The hour of encounter. 

Stars trickle at midnight 

Through the farthest spaces between 

All that once seemed eternal.

Journaling dreams, voicing a future

And attempting to alter a destiny 

Has  become hopelessly useless.

What’s undone can be done not again

Finger prints wiped, 

Leaving behind only a smudge. 

I indulge in caramel-coated

Memoirs as my eyes gaze into

 A jammed hour glass

As time declines passing.

But so it was… ♠


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Hey, Robot… feel THIS!

A few days ago, two friends and I met a man, whom we’ll call VF for Victor Frankenstein, who seems to have become obsessed with the idea of robots becoming more and more like humans. He showed us of the newest robot invention, in which he has invested, and praised it for its ability to evoke ‘emotion’. The robot is programmed to think like a human. VF was pushing his claim about the humanistic technology by stating that one day it will be taking care of our parents when they reach old age since, according to him, we humans don’t care enough about each other to do it. And that’s the reason he invested in this ‘human’ of the future. He has little faith in humanity and would rather deposit it, along with his money (or credit/loan), in something that ultimately is made by man. Ironic.

My friends and I had a different take on the subject. To what seemed to him as a negative outlook on technology, he went on a tangent about the need to see it as something positive and begins to number the very few advantages of embracing it. Now, to be clear, my outlook on technology is by no means a negative one, rather a more consciously critical perspective whilst acknowledging those very few qualities.

And as VF so fervidly tries to convince us that robots are the future of humanity and how we should eagerly embrace it, he fails to accept the fact that if he took that same passion and applied it to his views about humankind, he’d then realize that this initial obsession over technology is one of the main factors why society has become so desensitized. He said these robots would one day learn to love, perhaps even better than we ever could. Ha! We actually found this amusing.

My friends, let’s not forget that even though our fleshly bodies will eventually decay, our spirit bodies live on for an eternity. Our souls will wonder in galactic bliss time after time. Love can NEVER be replaced. Never. Our hearts are made of energy, our nervous system and hormones work magically together to provide the serotonin and endorphin, for example, that only human touch and other humanly functions can offer, and most importantly, our souls that reside in our physical know and feel the connection between all that is encompassed through The Divine.

Sure there are a plethora of things wrong in the world, but they won’t fix with attacks and negative energy. Ego destroys, compassion builds, and love will always remain. Let’s stay in love with one another despite turmoil.

Nina Simone addresses the audience so cleverly. But as the robots that people have become, they remained clueless as to the meaning and feelings that Nina was indirectly expressing. Please enjoy this fascinating and passionate performance.


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Dreams…Visions

My dreams and visions are never far off from my own reality. Often in short clips or twisted imagery, they portray my own current or future situations as well as those close to me.

In learning to decipher my own dreams, I am learning a lot about myself as I accept this gift that God has granted me. This gift laid heavy on my shoulders from time to time because I didn’t overstand  the responsibility that came attached with it. It can become scary when dreams portray a sense of purpose for my life, a mission that needs be carried out, but I can no longer keep denying this calling.

It’s something I have to face. It isn’t going to disappear for I have been chosen, as many of us are with our different gifts, to take action. Without going into detail about what those actions are, I overstand the work that lays before me.

I write today to tell you that I will become a reflection of the change that needs to and will take place on Earth. I don’t know details, but I am certain of this: my time has come. Slowly but surely, I have developed the skills to begin this journey. And I will continue to sharpen these skills and learn new ways of achieving my highest purpose in this life. I have encountered and reconnected with like-minded souls that share my same goal but with a different calling at hand.

What awaits me (us) may be a lonely road filled with unimaginable obstacles and circumstances, but nonetheless, with adequate preparation, I am in for the ride, in for change, in for the beginning of forever.

 


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No more Ramadan

Oh, it was a great journey observing Ramadan for the first time. This has been one of the most self-reflective, peaceful and appreciative experiences in my life. But I’d be lying if I said it was only that and a bag of chips.

Although the fasting came relatively easy, the last few days took a toll on my sleep, appetite and self-control. I’ve had a love/hate relationship in the past with discipline. But this experience has taught me something different about discipline – something to bring me back to Earth.

Approximately three to four years ago, I contemplated on fasting for a few days or a week or two. I felt I was spiritually motivated enough, but mentally and physically I wasn’t.  I was too concerned about how  I would go about my day, how much weight I would loose, and what pleasure i’d have to give up. Thinking back, if these factors affected my decision, then I definitely was not even spiritually ready.

Ramadan came at the right time in my life. I thought I’d only do about three to five days, but I soon realized that I would be denying myself from an experience that would not only facilitate and provide growth in every aspect of my life, but one that allowed me to open up to a culture/religion that I really knew nothing about. And it placed truly meaningful souls in my path that I will now cherish forever.

On the last day of Ramadan, I experienced bitter/sweet emotions. I can honestly say that this has been one of very few things I have accomplished in my twenty some odd years. There’s this feeling of elation, cleansing and gratefulness that overcame me on that last day. I must admit that I cried as I prayed my last prayer that night. My soul was renewed. I fulfilled a commitment that would change my life for the better. I’ve learned many things on this holy month of Ramadan, and I regret not one second of it!

This has been my first of many to come. I am so thankful for those souls who sent me positive energy and supported my journey, both near and far. It’s meant the world to me.

Blessings,

Moon


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More ENERGY!

Most of you are not aware, but I started fasting last Friday, 7-20-2012, for the month of Ramadan. What can I say? It is better than I expected and not as hard as I assumed

I have never fasted. So I guess that makes me a fast-virgin. haha! Is that inappropriate? Anyhow, my intentions were to complete three to five days of fasting, even though Ramadan’s done for a month. But after the first three days went by, I knew I had to keep going. I wasn’t going to limit myself. I’m not Muslim, but I really want/need to experience this. I went to a Mosque for the first time that Friday to break fast with my soul brothers. One of my closest ones told me I had to wear a head scarf. (I won’t deny that I felt inclined to reject the idea of attending because I felt like I shouldn’t have to.) But I put my pride and ignorance aside and agreed. I must say I look rather charming in a hijab! 🙂

How do they wrap these things nicely and make it stay?

At that Mosque, the food was DELICIOUS. The first night we had brown rice, roti and some sweet mango thing, salad, and some kind of meat. I didn’t eat the meat, although it looked quite appetizing. The second night there was a curry rice with veggies, noodles with veggies, salad and chicken. Again, I didn’t have the chicken.

My overall diet after breaking fast has consisted of natural veggie and fruit juices, cereal with nuts and fruits and hemp powder with almond milk, grilled veggie pizza, freshly ground peanut butter and raspberry jam sandwiches on french mini baguettes or multi-grain ciabatta rolls, wheat crackers and tomato basil hummus, fruits and salads. Oh, and of course WATER and tea!

Made my salads and juices from here

One of the breads

They grounded the butter in front of me.. that’s what i call FRESH

Granola & fruit cereal. Ants proof!

I trust you WON’T report me

The other one was grilled

Just a small fraction of my tea collection

So, back to the title of my post. I have been constantly flowing with energy since I began Ramadan. And I know we are made of energy, so of course its only natural. But I mean, I am very well aware of it. I feel it in my veins, through my chest, under my skin. It’s such a great, satisfying and healing feeling. I’d say it’s indescribable, but AMAZING! I feel refreshed, light, happy, ecstatic, lively, more positive… I could go on.

I wondered, what has been sustaining me during the fifteen hours of absolutely no consumption, and I only have one answer: GOD. I pray and meditate every chance I get. I’ve disconnected from every social site (except you guys), I have not watched TV, listened to music, socialized (unless I’m at the Mosque or other healing group gathering (Reiki circles, for example), nor have I felt the need for these things.

I feel stupendous, fantastically amazing and overall filled with peace.

So, last night I decided to treat myself because I am truly proud at how much I am achieving and how disciplined I have been. I don’t have a sweet tooth, but every now and then I crave for a scrumptious delicacy of some sort. This is the Ultimate Pecan Cinnamon Roll from The Fresh Market, about 18 miles from home.

the photo does it NO justice

But I only had this much!

I shared the rest

Overall, I feel like I have more clarity, more energy, more joy and peace. I will definitely be doing this every year. It’s been the best decision I’ve made in 2012 so far. I truly and wholeheartedly recommend this to any and every one, religious or not, spiritual or not.
Ain’t it ironic how in a post about fasting there seems to be so much food? I do get thirsty, but honestly, I have not been starving. I truly feel great, and God alone has been sustaining me.


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“Just a matter of time…”

This is my beginning

For I’ve chosen the end.

No longer trailing along,

Lost in a desire that weakens my soul,

I now walk barefoot.

I confidently sat on a pedestal

Almost engraved with my name,

But as quickly as I was elevated

Tumbling down I came –

I was now on the backburner.

See last night I prayed.

Leaving behind what once held me high,

Shedding the layers that eventually

Dragged me down,

I just prayed.

My plea was answered before I even began.

Yet there I prayed – seeking reassurance.

Going back in time,

I realized I was driving past exit signs

Time after time, disguised in numbers –

Each representing the many occasions

I wished to retract on my journey

And many of my regretted actions.

But God spoke to me,

Forgave me for the guilt I carried in the backseat,

Buried with accessories necessary for one’s travels.

This expedition had an expiration date

From the moment I agreed to ride.

But this is my beginning.

And I smile because now I just drive –

Drive on a freeway at a comfortable speed

Windows down,

Hair blowing in the wind,

Sun kissing my skin…